Me: "Who are you?"
Samara: "I am Miss 'Amara' Dinkel"
Well, yes you are!
Monday, November 28, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
And So It Begins...
Yesterday I heard the first Christmas song played on the radio. Oh glorious Christmas music! In KC, there is a station that starts playing Christmas music in early November. For me that is too soon, but a few days before Thanksgiving? A perfect time to start listening. What's your favorite Christmas tunes?
My favorite traditional Christmas song:
My favorite non-traditional Christmas song:
Let the Holiday season begin!!!
My favorite traditional Christmas song:
My favorite non-traditional Christmas song:
Let the Holiday season begin!!!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
On A Lighter Note...
While getting ready to go to bed, Samara said to me, "Goodnight my darling." Precious, precious girl =)
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Yellow Day
Poor Malachi. His streak of all "Green Days" has now ended. When I pulled up to get him from school, I could tell something was bothering him. He didn't run up to the car with a smile. Instead he walked up, opened the door, and the tears started streaming down his little face. "I...had...a...yellow...day" <sniff, tear, sniff>. I then asked him what happened. He said that he and another girl were talking during tier time. He said that during the last recess he couldn't even play because he was too upset about his "Yellow Day". Instead, he took a walk around the playground and then sat down on some smooth rocks. I told him that while I was disappointed with his choice to disobey I still loved him just as much. Of course, though, there would be punishments at home. No Halloween candy or playing any computer games tonight. He didn't argue or complain.
When we got home, he had to go tell James about his day. James was in our bedroom and Malachi could barely get the news out before the tears began running down his face. James, too, told him that we were still proud of him and to try harder tomorrow. Malachi then nestled between us on the bed for a few minutes.
While it breaks my heart that his streak has ended, I am still so very proud that for 3 months straight he was able to listen and obey at school without problems. Maybe this will show him to never let his guard down and to not take "Green Days" for granted. Cheer up there, kiddo! Tomorrow is a new day =)
When we got home, he had to go tell James about his day. James was in our bedroom and Malachi could barely get the news out before the tears began running down his face. James, too, told him that we were still proud of him and to try harder tomorrow. Malachi then nestled between us on the bed for a few minutes.
While it breaks my heart that his streak has ended, I am still so very proud that for 3 months straight he was able to listen and obey at school without problems. Maybe this will show him to never let his guard down and to not take "Green Days" for granted. Cheer up there, kiddo! Tomorrow is a new day =)
Friday, November 11, 2011
Green Day Reward
Malachi has achieved another month of all "Green Days" at school. This time we decided his reward would be a parent coming to eat lunch at school and Malachi could buy a hot lunch from the school. He brings his lunch (he insists upon a PB&J sandwich every day) so to buy a lunch would be special. Since I attended his Halloween party, it was James' turn to do something fun.
For lunch, they ate chicken nuggets, mashed potatoes and gravy, grapes, and chocolate milk. Malachi said that Kindergarteners never finish all of their food, but he and James did. I asked what they talked about during lunch and Malachi replied that they didn't talk too much because they wanted to make sure they made a "happy plate". James later said that there 2 boys at their table who talked non-stop at him. The boys were trying to talk over each other and so James had no idea what they were saying.
After lunch, James stayed for recess. He said Malachi spent the whole time playing "fight" with a girl. Another Kindergarten teacher struck up a conversation with James; Malachi told me that "Daddy made friends with her". She is an older teacher who I overhear tell each of her students she loves them before sending them off to their parents. You never know if that's the only time the child hears that so it makes my heart happy.
It's my hope that Malachi will continue his "Green Day" streak and I'll be able to have lunch with him next month!
For lunch, they ate chicken nuggets, mashed potatoes and gravy, grapes, and chocolate milk. Malachi said that Kindergarteners never finish all of their food, but he and James did. I asked what they talked about during lunch and Malachi replied that they didn't talk too much because they wanted to make sure they made a "happy plate". James later said that there 2 boys at their table who talked non-stop at him. The boys were trying to talk over each other and so James had no idea what they were saying.
After lunch, James stayed for recess. He said Malachi spent the whole time playing "fight" with a girl. Another Kindergarten teacher struck up a conversation with James; Malachi told me that "Daddy made friends with her". She is an older teacher who I overhear tell each of her students she loves them before sending them off to their parents. You never know if that's the only time the child hears that so it makes my heart happy.
It's my hope that Malachi will continue his "Green Day" streak and I'll be able to have lunch with him next month!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
My Dearest Uncle JR
The week of October 17th my Uncle JR was admitted to the hospital. He hadn't been able to eat for about a week. There had been other times when he wasn't able to eat and so it was everyone's hope that he would pull through yet again. You see he had battled colon cancer for the past 6 years. When he was first diagnosed, it was already at a Stage IV (the worst stage to be at). But, God performed many miracles during these 6 years and gave us way more time with him than ever was expected. By that Friday, the 21st, though, it was obvious to the doctors that this time there would be no miracle. The cancer was squeezing his small intestine causing him to not be able to keep food down. Because of his fragile state, he was not a candidate for surgery to insert a GI tube for feeding. Plus, the tube would only prolong the inevitable. My uncle had exhausted all chemo options; there was no hope for remission.
By late Friday morning, it was decided that my uncle would be moved to a hospice center and he would be made as comfortable as possible. He was not expected to make it through the weekend. My mom called me to let me know this. I knew I had to go up to say goodbye. I called James at work to let him know and he said that he would leave whenever I needed him to. After getting off the phone with him, I started crying. Malachi was home from school that day and noticed me crying. I explained to him and Isaiah what was going on. They immediately wanted to do something for their Papa since Uncle JR was his only brother and they knew he would be sad. They both decided to draw pictures for both my dad and my uncle. The pictures were of my dad and uncle together. It brought such joy and sadness to my heart. Even though they are young, they can understand the heaviness of the situation.
By 3pm, I was on the road. It gave me time to cry by myself, reflect on the many precious memories with him, and to pray. Prayer for comfort, peace, and for my uncle to be pain-free. I met my sister at her house and my brother-in-law drove us up to the hospice center. My mom had warned me that he was no longer able to verbally communicate, but nothing can prepare you to see someone you love so dearly be in that condition. He had lost a lot of weight since the last time I had seen him. He mostly had his eyes closed, but there were times when he would open them up and we tried let him see us. He would squeeze our hands and even though I knew he couldn't talk, he was talking through non-verbals. His 4 daughters were there along with his 2nd wife. I hadn't seen any of them in years and it was wonderful to be able to hug them and talk to them in person. After a few hours, we decided to go to my sister's house to get some rest. It was a pretty sleepless night.
The next morning I waited at my parents' house for my dad's sister to arrive. I was going to drive her up to the hospice center. My dad and mom had already left to go see him. While I was waiting, I looked at pictures of my dad and his brother. They had made some sort of smoker together and smoked a pig. These pictures showed them laughing and having an incredible time together. A true brotherly bond. I couldn't help but cry for my dad because he would no longer be able to make such amazing memories with his only brother. Their parents passed away years ago and my dad isn't very close to his sister so I couldn't imagine the hole in his heart this death would bring. After the cancer diagnosis, my dad and uncle really reconnected; they would call each other almost every day and talk for a long time. They would see each other regularly, too. They were best buds.
Once my aunt made it, I drove her to see her brother. I tried to warn her about what she was going to walk into. When we got there, he was less responsive with his hand squeezes. He was surrounded by family sharing some of their favorite memories and playing his favorite songs. I think most of us had a private moment with him to tell him what he meant to us and that it was ok for him to stop fighting. He deserved to not be in any more pain. There were times when his body would start to cool off and so we thought the end might be nearing, but my uncle is such a fighter that soon his temperature would rebound. His respirations were shallow and irregular and I would stop breathing for a moment if he didn't take a breath when I thought he should have. It was such an emotionally and physically exhausting day. Towards the evening, the hospice nurse thought that maybe he was holding out until no one was in the room. She advised us to say our final farewells and then wait in the family waiting room. Eventually, the doctor increased his pain meds, as well. But my uncle was not ready to go yet.
By 8:30pm, my dad was ready to go home. My mom had left a little earlier with my sister. I drove him home and then went up to my sister's house. That night I slept soundly. After showering the next morning, I made my way down to my parents' house. My dad hadn't heard any news and wasn't sure if he wanted to go back up there that day. I offered to call to get an update. His 2nd wife told me that he had some scary moments during the night, but his vitals were still stable. However, he looked worse than the day before and he was having more muscle spasms. She suggested that unless we felt that we needed to be there, then we might want to stay home since the day before was a great day with the family (unless you've been in this type of situation, it may be hard to understand that it could be "great", but it was wonderful to share all the memories together). My dad decided against going up and he requested that I go back home and my sister take care of her family. Before I left KC, my aunt, cousin, and grandparents came by to offer support and some hugs.
On Monday, my dad decided to go up to see him again. My mom accompanied him and my dad is so glad that he did. After Bible study that night, I heard the news that he passed away that evening. He was finally at peace. While it was expected, it doesn't ease the sorrow. There are 4 girls without their daddy, 16 grandkiddos without a grandpa, a brother without his brother, and so on.
The service was on Saturday, October 29th. James, the kiddos, and I were able to make it. This was the kiddos' first experience with death. My uncle requested to be cremated so the funeral home was filled with pictures of him along with Native American memorabilia because he was always proud of his heritage. The service was beautiful. There was a wonderful tribute written about him and they played a few of his favorite songs. He was an Army veteran and so the family was presented with a flag along with a 21 gun salute and "Taps" being played. Nothing brings tears faster than hearing that song; it reminds me of my grandpa's funeral and it represents the absolute finality of it.
My uncle made an impression on everyone he met. He was super ornery, but cared deeply about those he loved. He was generous and quite the story-teller. I loved how he called my dad by his first and middle name. Growing up, we had to make him his own pitcher of sweet, iced tea every time he came over. The last time he saw my kiddos was a few years ago when we came up for Easter. Even though he had grandkids to buy for, he still bought 3 huge Easter baskets for my kiddos. He loved to give all that he had. When I talked to him on the phone, he would call me "Baby Doll". While I'm glad that he no longer is in pain, it still hurts. He was so young to die...only 58 years old. I am so very proud to have known him and to have him as part of my family. Love you forever, Uncle JR.
Floyd "JR" Cushenbery passed away on October 24, 2011 after a courageous battle with cancer. JR was born on December 15, 1952, in Lawrence, KS., to parents, Mary Ann and Floyd S. Cushenbery, Sr., who have preceded him in death. JR proudly served his country in the U.S. Army for 6 years. He was a member of the American Legion Tirey J. Ford Post 21, and enjoyed many friends and good times there. JR worked hard for the U.S. Postal Service for 32 years, and retired in September, 2008. He liked to fish, go boating, and target practice. But what JR liked most, was to spend time with family and friends. He loved to joke around, tease people with a sparkle in his eyes, and make everyone laugh. JR was extremely proud of his Cherokee Indian heritage and we know he is now in the happy hunting ground. He will be dearly missed by his four daughters, Molly Chavez and husband William, Pam Razo and husband Bobby, Crystal Ledesma and husband John, and Kim Carr and partner Marvin Burchett. JR also leaves behind his brother Terry Cushenbery and Janice, sister Kay Cushenbery and 16 grandchildren, along with Donovan Carr, who preceded him in death, and many friends and family. Visitation is at 11 a.m., with services at 12 p.m., on Saturday, October 29, at Highland Park Funeral Home, 4100 State Ave., Kansas City, KS. May he finally be pain free and at peace with God in heaven. No one can take JR's place -- God bless him and his generous heart.
By late Friday morning, it was decided that my uncle would be moved to a hospice center and he would be made as comfortable as possible. He was not expected to make it through the weekend. My mom called me to let me know this. I knew I had to go up to say goodbye. I called James at work to let him know and he said that he would leave whenever I needed him to. After getting off the phone with him, I started crying. Malachi was home from school that day and noticed me crying. I explained to him and Isaiah what was going on. They immediately wanted to do something for their Papa since Uncle JR was his only brother and they knew he would be sad. They both decided to draw pictures for both my dad and my uncle. The pictures were of my dad and uncle together. It brought such joy and sadness to my heart. Even though they are young, they can understand the heaviness of the situation.
By 3pm, I was on the road. It gave me time to cry by myself, reflect on the many precious memories with him, and to pray. Prayer for comfort, peace, and for my uncle to be pain-free. I met my sister at her house and my brother-in-law drove us up to the hospice center. My mom had warned me that he was no longer able to verbally communicate, but nothing can prepare you to see someone you love so dearly be in that condition. He had lost a lot of weight since the last time I had seen him. He mostly had his eyes closed, but there were times when he would open them up and we tried let him see us. He would squeeze our hands and even though I knew he couldn't talk, he was talking through non-verbals. His 4 daughters were there along with his 2nd wife. I hadn't seen any of them in years and it was wonderful to be able to hug them and talk to them in person. After a few hours, we decided to go to my sister's house to get some rest. It was a pretty sleepless night.
The next morning I waited at my parents' house for my dad's sister to arrive. I was going to drive her up to the hospice center. My dad and mom had already left to go see him. While I was waiting, I looked at pictures of my dad and his brother. They had made some sort of smoker together and smoked a pig. These pictures showed them laughing and having an incredible time together. A true brotherly bond. I couldn't help but cry for my dad because he would no longer be able to make such amazing memories with his only brother. Their parents passed away years ago and my dad isn't very close to his sister so I couldn't imagine the hole in his heart this death would bring. After the cancer diagnosis, my dad and uncle really reconnected; they would call each other almost every day and talk for a long time. They would see each other regularly, too. They were best buds.
Once my aunt made it, I drove her to see her brother. I tried to warn her about what she was going to walk into. When we got there, he was less responsive with his hand squeezes. He was surrounded by family sharing some of their favorite memories and playing his favorite songs. I think most of us had a private moment with him to tell him what he meant to us and that it was ok for him to stop fighting. He deserved to not be in any more pain. There were times when his body would start to cool off and so we thought the end might be nearing, but my uncle is such a fighter that soon his temperature would rebound. His respirations were shallow and irregular and I would stop breathing for a moment if he didn't take a breath when I thought he should have. It was such an emotionally and physically exhausting day. Towards the evening, the hospice nurse thought that maybe he was holding out until no one was in the room. She advised us to say our final farewells and then wait in the family waiting room. Eventually, the doctor increased his pain meds, as well. But my uncle was not ready to go yet.
By 8:30pm, my dad was ready to go home. My mom had left a little earlier with my sister. I drove him home and then went up to my sister's house. That night I slept soundly. After showering the next morning, I made my way down to my parents' house. My dad hadn't heard any news and wasn't sure if he wanted to go back up there that day. I offered to call to get an update. His 2nd wife told me that he had some scary moments during the night, but his vitals were still stable. However, he looked worse than the day before and he was having more muscle spasms. She suggested that unless we felt that we needed to be there, then we might want to stay home since the day before was a great day with the family (unless you've been in this type of situation, it may be hard to understand that it could be "great", but it was wonderful to share all the memories together). My dad decided against going up and he requested that I go back home and my sister take care of her family. Before I left KC, my aunt, cousin, and grandparents came by to offer support and some hugs.
On Monday, my dad decided to go up to see him again. My mom accompanied him and my dad is so glad that he did. After Bible study that night, I heard the news that he passed away that evening. He was finally at peace. While it was expected, it doesn't ease the sorrow. There are 4 girls without their daddy, 16 grandkiddos without a grandpa, a brother without his brother, and so on.
The service was on Saturday, October 29th. James, the kiddos, and I were able to make it. This was the kiddos' first experience with death. My uncle requested to be cremated so the funeral home was filled with pictures of him along with Native American memorabilia because he was always proud of his heritage. The service was beautiful. There was a wonderful tribute written about him and they played a few of his favorite songs. He was an Army veteran and so the family was presented with a flag along with a 21 gun salute and "Taps" being played. Nothing brings tears faster than hearing that song; it reminds me of my grandpa's funeral and it represents the absolute finality of it.
My uncle made an impression on everyone he met. He was super ornery, but cared deeply about those he loved. He was generous and quite the story-teller. I loved how he called my dad by his first and middle name. Growing up, we had to make him his own pitcher of sweet, iced tea every time he came over. The last time he saw my kiddos was a few years ago when we came up for Easter. Even though he had grandkids to buy for, he still bought 3 huge Easter baskets for my kiddos. He loved to give all that he had. When I talked to him on the phone, he would call me "Baby Doll". While I'm glad that he no longer is in pain, it still hurts. He was so young to die...only 58 years old. I am so very proud to have known him and to have him as part of my family. Love you forever, Uncle JR.
Floyd "JR" Cushenbery passed away on October 24, 2011 after a courageous battle with cancer. JR was born on December 15, 1952, in Lawrence, KS., to parents, Mary Ann and Floyd S. Cushenbery, Sr., who have preceded him in death. JR proudly served his country in the U.S. Army for 6 years. He was a member of the American Legion Tirey J. Ford Post 21, and enjoyed many friends and good times there. JR worked hard for the U.S. Postal Service for 32 years, and retired in September, 2008. He liked to fish, go boating, and target practice. But what JR liked most, was to spend time with family and friends. He loved to joke around, tease people with a sparkle in his eyes, and make everyone laugh. JR was extremely proud of his Cherokee Indian heritage and we know he is now in the happy hunting ground. He will be dearly missed by his four daughters, Molly Chavez and husband William, Pam Razo and husband Bobby, Crystal Ledesma and husband John, and Kim Carr and partner Marvin Burchett. JR also leaves behind his brother Terry Cushenbery and Janice, sister Kay Cushenbery and 16 grandchildren, along with Donovan Carr, who preceded him in death, and many friends and family. Visitation is at 11 a.m., with services at 12 p.m., on Saturday, October 29, at Highland Park Funeral Home, 4100 State Ave., Kansas City, KS. May he finally be pain free and at peace with God in heaven. No one can take JR's place -- God bless him and his generous heart. Long Time No Blog
My sincerest apologies for my absence from the blog. Three weeks ago I received the news that my uncle (my dad's older brother) was not expected to live longer than a few days. He had been battling colon cancer for 6 years and it finally was at a point where there wasn't any other options available. I wanted to write a post about this and I still will. I kept sitting down to write out the experience, but I just couldn't. Enough time has passed to where I think I can post about it. But, I thought I would start out on a happier note and bring everyone up to speed on our life.
The family made the annual trip to the pumpkin patch near our home. I, unfortunately, had to miss it because I was up in KC with my family saying goodbye to my uncle. James' parents and younger brother along with his fiancé drove down for the day. I'm trying to upload the pictures from my mother-in-law. Once I succeed, I will post them!
Malachi's class had a Halloween party the Friday before Halloween. He was able to dress up in his Darth Vader costume. I was able to go to his party. They played games and ate yummy cupcakes. It was also an early-release day so he came home with me at the conclusion of the party. Here is a picture of him at his desk:
James had his med school interview at KU in Wichita on Halloween. (still waiting to hear how that went.) Malachi was out of school that day so we had a low-key morning and then prepped for the night while waiting for James to get home. Our town's Main Street closes down and the business hand out candy to the trick or treaters. The kiddos always enjoy walking around the town collecting candy. Isaiah was equally as excited to see everyone's costumes as he was to get candy. This year Samara was not shy to say "Trick or Treat" and she was pumped about her loot. After making it to the businesses, we headed over to the church where they used to go to daycare at. The church always has a carnival, trunk or treats, and bounce houses. Each kiddo won a cake at the cake walk. We enjoyed eating nachos and hot dogs there, too. The evening ended with us going around to our neighbors. All in all it was a very successful and fun evening! Here is a picture of them before heading out:
This past weekend we attended a Fall Festival hosted by a friend from my Monday night Bible study. They live in the country and had plenty of space for the crowd. There were 2 bounce houses, a pony named Sweet Potato that Isaiah and Samara rode on. After a yummy potluck dinner, the kiddos and I rode on an antique fire truck. Kiddos piled in the back of it (adults were there, too!) and they took about a 10 minute ride in it. What a blast! A few evenings later a friend told me that while her son and Malachi were in the bounce house, they had a pretty serious conversation about a girl at school wanting to kiss Malachi and that he needed to run away from her so that wouldn't happen. Oh the "man talks" that occur in bounce houses ;-)
I think that's about all that's been going on in our world. I hope you all are healthy, staying warm, and enjoying this fall!!!
The family made the annual trip to the pumpkin patch near our home. I, unfortunately, had to miss it because I was up in KC with my family saying goodbye to my uncle. James' parents and younger brother along with his fiancé drove down for the day. I'm trying to upload the pictures from my mother-in-law. Once I succeed, I will post them!
Malachi's class had a Halloween party the Friday before Halloween. He was able to dress up in his Darth Vader costume. I was able to go to his party. They played games and ate yummy cupcakes. It was also an early-release day so he came home with me at the conclusion of the party. Here is a picture of him at his desk:
I think that's about all that's been going on in our world. I hope you all are healthy, staying warm, and enjoying this fall!!!
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